An Animal's pet

Ahhh Ulfric just fucked me into sub space and it was great. Well, fucked/humiliated/hit me into sub space. 

He started the whole thing off by chewing on my hand a bit, but He kept actually managing to hurt me. I said ow a few times and He said “Wants to bite. Let me bite.” I got up and went closer to Him and told Him He could bite my neck/shoulder area, and the way He grinned actually frightened me a bit. I actually told Him to make sure it was going to be enjoyable for me. He did that, definitely. But when He clamped down it, He really bit me hard. He kept twisting the skin He had in His mouth, as well. I safeworded and He let me slump over the couch for a minute to catch my breath, then while I wasn’t paying attention, He latched onto my bicep with His teeth. I actually screamed when He did that one, which made Him cover my mouth with His hand which was just fine with me, haha. 

I ended up back on the couch, turned so I was kneeling and looking at Him and He kept pinching my new bite marks, then He started slapping me across the face. He said “I’ll stop when you fucking cum for me”, which of course sent me straight into a fucking orgasm. He kept going, grabbed the back of my hair and held my face in place and slapped me repeatedly, eventually degrading me verbally in the process. “Why don’t you cum harder for me, you fucking whore? Cum for me. Soak those fucking panties you dirty slut.”

I did. ;D

After this we went to the bedroom and He was so rough and just fucking pounding me really deeply. It was fantastic. He got so deep that I was actually telling/screaming at Him that it was hurting, but it felt wonderful. By the end of it, He had me laying on my side, holding my face to the bed with His hand, and then He punched me in the thigh really hard. My insides are bruised and it’s amazing. 

He pulled out of me, and rolled to the side, and I immediately started crying. Sub drop ain’t fun, kids. He grabbed me and cuddled me the second He realized I was crying, and kissed my head and stroked my hair while I cried. I apologized to Him for crying, and He kept telling me He didn’t care and that it was a good thing and that it was ok.

I wouldn’t make it through my bad moments if He didn’t do those kinds of things for me. <3

Our vacation is in about two weeks. I’m really excited and can’t wait to be there. I can’t wait to try out that Jacuzzi tub too. ;D We’re supposed to do some drowning play in it. 

Ulfric fucked me on the kitchen floor again yesterday. He seems to enjoy that rug hah. 

I’ve got tattoo touch ups to get done today. Also a shit load of dishes. I just wanted to throw in a quick update.

Things are steady, and I’m ready as fuck for our vacation together.

Oh, so the other week, Ulfric had me try out giving Him a foot job while we were fucking. It went on for a minute, and both of us were like “nope, I don’t get it” then we laughed. He wanted to try it out to see what it was like, coz He really does like my feet, but apparently it’s not a fetish for either of us hahaha. I felt odd using my feet on His dick, and He just out and out did NOT get it. Hahahah.

I do enjoy the fact that we’re comfortable enough with each other that we don’t feel shy or reserved about trying out new things. Even if it ends up being silly and not something we’d do again, we know we can at least try it out with each other. :D

Ulfric came home and fucked me out of the blue. It was realllly nice. But then, any time we have sex, it’s great, hahah.

He pulled out when He came though, which He almost never does, and now I’ve got cum stuck in my pubes, which is altogether new to me because I didn’t even HAVE pubes from the time I was 16 until about two months ago. HOW DO YOU PEOPLE DEAL WITH THIS? But He likes me fuzzy. :D

Not much of an update really, but there you go.

Mushroomhead was brill. They were outstanding, really. It was a great concert and Ulfric was beside Himself with happiness. It was really wonderful to see!

I got a wonderful piece of “fanmail” from a reader today. No details, but I wanted to mention it because it was so kind and awesome and flattering, and it also made me think a bit about the blog and it’s contents and what it means to post these things online, and that’s what I want to touch on in this post. So an extra thank you to the lovely follower for giving me post fodder! You’re precious. :D

When I started this whole thing a year ago, I really didn’t have a clue that it would garner the attention that it has. I’m not like, tumblr famous or anything (Hardly. We’re steady chillin at 118 followers. My personal blog has more than that!) but still…118 people that read such a personal blog, that is my LIFE…that’s pretty big. And it’s wide-reaching. We’ve got followers from Canada to the west coast. (And I think one of my recent followers is even from England!) I guess, since I never thought that we’d have this kind of following, I never really thought about the general content of my blog itself, and how very revealing and personal it is by its own nature. 

I’m not saying that I’m rethinking what I post/the depth I go into my posts/the blog. I’m not saying that at all. I love running the blog, I love meeting people in the lifestyle or that are just curious and have questions. I love the ability to be open and honest about our relationship without (much) fear of judgment. It’s very freeing and relaxing! 

I am saying that it’s just NOW hit me that I do go into intimate details about our life together and our lives in general. Honestly, before today, I hadn’t really thought about it. I was just open about things and wrote what I felt/wanted to say. But in the message today, the follower said they felt that they knew me intimately, and in a way, I suppose all of you do. The point of this blog, from day 1, was to be sincere and lay it out on the line. It was a way for Ulfric to know my thoughts and feelings when I wasn’t around Him or we’d tried something new. It was a way for Him to know the details of my day when He wasn’t with me. So I never hid anything I felt/thought. I wanted to be honest about everything, and I was and still am. I’ve never disguised my feelings or thoughts that I’ve discussed here. I never fudged on them, or changed them, or lied about them. Everything you read here is genuine emotions. The good, the bad, the indifferent; it’s all true to myself on a very basic level. Not only that, but when I post about our lives, it’s all real. We do these things, we have these fights, we are what we portray online. If you met us in public, aside from Him not hitting me, you’d meet exactly what you read here. We’re nerdy and sarcastic and both a bit quiet at first. He’s a charmer, I’m most likely to make strange jokes. 

So in a way, followers, yes. You do know us intimately. You read details of our lives that even some of our closest friends don’t know about. In some ways, you know us better than our families, because I’ll be damned if we ever give them details on what we do behind closed doors. (Can you imagine the freak out if I told them I enjoyed being punched? Hah!) Everything you read, every bit of grief and joy; love, depression, heartache, financial struggle…it’s all real. None of it is exaggerated or toned down for this blog. You get front row seats to US. Realizing that is exhilarating, and daunting. Exhilarating because our followers care enough to read this, and be interested in this. Daunting because holy shit, what if we’re genuinely boring people, or extreme or or or…

I love writing this. I love being open about life. I love that you guys care and I cannot thank you enough.

We’re always available to answer questions and I just don’t any of you to ever feel afraid to ask us anything or tell us anything or give us suggestions, because we’re just people! We’re really kind and we’re just like you guys. :D

I’ve officially been running this blog for a year now. INSANITY.

Ulfric’s been punching me quite a bit lately. I really really enjoy it. I’m kinda fond of the moment immediately after of “oh fuck can’t BREATHE”. I just wish it’d bruise now. I’m REALLY frustrated with my own body lately. 

Ulfric and I are definitely going to Carowinds in a few weeks. I just can’t wait. We reserved a hotel room with a Jacuzzi tub and a king size bed. He even said He’d wait while I rode roller coasters, since He’s not fond of them. I can’t wait to go to the water park there, either. 

This Saturday, I managed to get us tickets to Mushroomhead and (Hed)P.E., and He seems moderately excited. Mushroomhead used to be His absolute favorite band, and they’re still in His top five, so yay. 

I’ll be getting a few touch ups on my newest tattoos next week. Always excited to go under the needle, for any reason at all. 

It’s been super quiet around here lately. So there’s a post!

My body refuses to bruise and I hate it. I mean, I loath it, completely. I want BRUISES. I want my body to show the amount of pain and pleasure He gives me and it fucking WON’T FUCKING DO IT. I have this tremendous bruise fetish and I can’t EVEN FUCKING HAVE THE FUCKING BRUISES. 

Ulfric is going to visit His mom this weekend, since it’s Mother’s Day on Sunday in the US. He just left for the train station and I already miss Him terribly. He fucked me before He left and it was fantastic, but He also took the time to make me squirt super hard, and it seriously looked like I’d dumped a bowl of water on the bathroom floor. There was a good 1.5in of standing water in a puddle between my feet. It was amazing. He accidentally knocked the air out of me by punching me too, haha. I was bent over the bed and He was fucking me and hit me and for some reason…woosh. All the air, gonzo. So He flipped me onto my back and kept fucking me. Worked out JUST fine haha. It was super nice of Him to take the time to make me squirt, especially. I wasn’t expecting it, and since we have to be completely naked in the bathroom when He makes me squirt super big like that, we don’t do it often. So yea, it was just really awesome of Him to take the time to do that. It eased some of my anxiety. 

I asked Him to bite me before He left, so He did just that. Now my entire shoulder/neck area on the right side is burning like hell. It’ll more than likely bruise, so I’ll get a nice picture of it if it does. 

I’ve got plans to have people over on Saturday. Ulfric’s best friend and his fiancee are going to come hang out with me so I’m not totally alone, and I’m really touched by this. And my lady friend is coming over that night. =]

I hope Ulfric gets the relaxation He’s needing this weekend. It’s been hectic and crazy around here and I just hope He gets to chill out and feel better when He comes home. Our good neighbors are staying near us, and the bad neighbors are leaving, so it’s just a nice thing all around.

Ulfric, I’ll miss you terribly, Sir. I love you, have fun, and spare some thoughts for me. <3